How to Overcome My Procrastination

Written November 2, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

I’m finding it hard to motivate myself to start my run today. The house was much chilly than the last couple of weeks, and all I wanted to do was stay in the house. In addition, I was sleepy all day. Yep, it’s my procrastination problem again. The weather gives me an excuse to delay starting my run; the longer I delay, the warmer it becomes. 

Despite how I feel, I have an important task to accomplish. It’s a new month, so I want to achieve my November 10k challenge. My wife and I use a running app from Asics. We use the free version of the app, which has running or working challenges. I would love to complete the 10K challenge. The challenge will go away once I complete it, but it still gives me a sense of accomplishment. 

My wife has been complaining about the dark mornings, and she feels much more sleepy during the day. She told me that she needed to hibernate for the winter one day. In general, we have our biological clock, which adjusts our energy level according to the season. Winter is not a good time to hunt or farm. It would have been much more difficult for people to acquire food. We developed a biological clock to adjust our energy level with the season to survive. Of course, the biological clock does not work for the modern day.

I remember my wife telling me that she had a hard time losing weight from fall to winter. She adjusted her exercise program to gain more muscles around the season. 

I look at the temperature. It is not warm enough to run in shorts yet, and I am curious how warm it will be. I have been making excuses not to do 10km. No matter how much I value running, a 10km run is still more work. So, I stood up, and I made a decision. I think I’ve delayed long enough to run in shorts but a long-sleeved shirt. So, now is the time.  Avoiding procrastination is a lot harder when there are additional benefits to waiting.

It is much easier to overcome my procrastination problem if I consider the satisfaction or benefits I gain from it. I completed my 10km run, checked off the monthly challenge, and gained so much satisfaction from it.

Organizing Your Tasks is the Key to Creating Flow

Written October 31, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

I have been organizing my schedule. My routine has been disrupted this week due to a blood lab appointment. In addition to the appointment, I also wanted to make apple pies and pumpkin muffins for my wife. For weeks, I have noticed that some schedule changes could impact my daily routine. I want to keep my schedule so that I have accomplished something for the day.  

The best way to increase your satisfaction in your daily routine is to keep it organized and prioritize your tasks. Not all tasks provide me with an equal amount of satisfaction. However, it is still essential to do the tasks, such as going to the lab or my doctor,  that have a due date or must be done. My wife created the task list and put the rate on each task, which she learned in her teens and customized to fit her needs. I would not do the same way she does, but I adjusted my schedule to accomplish something I care about, such as exercise.

I created my tasks around the exercise because that gave me the most satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment for the day. Aside from finishing this blog entry, which I’m working on now.  I’ve completed most of my Friday chores a couple of hours early. After my exercise, I seem to gain more energy.

Procrastination is my biggest problem. Even after my exercise, I have much less energy than my wife. I’ve worked to eliminate the problem but still suffer from the temptation, even with the extra energy I seem to have. Today, I was tempted to pause my progress or put aside the tasks. I noticed those tasks accumulated so quickly in the later days, so I decided to complete everything before relaxing. It was a good decision I made. I created momentum to complete my tasks more quickly. Every time I complete my checklist, I gain more energy. As a result, I will likely have another hour or two until my friends become available to play our regularly scheduled games. 

Organizing and prioritizing my tasks help me sustain adequate energy to complete them. When I complete the tasks that mean a lot to me, I gain much more energy. When you get momentum, you will gain a flow. I could be better. I still struggle with the temptation of procrastination, but I am working toward it.

A Happy Pumpkin Muffin Days!

Written October 29, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

I want to make muffins today. My wife has an important company meeting on Thursday and has asked me to prepare some food for it. We had the Pumpkin puree from last year. Initially, I was to put nuts onto muffins; however, my wife said there were people with nut allergies. So, I thought I could use some pumpkin seeds instead. We bought the seeds to go with them because none were left from the pumpkin. 

My wife sometimes asks me to bake for her. I like baking, but despite how much I want to, I don’t bake as much as I would like to. My wife does not have a taste for sweets as much. Besides, she is watching her weight vigorously, so any baking will disrupt her calorie restriction. She asked me to bake them for other people whenever she could. 

My wife thinks that baking will have a therapeutic effect on my brain. Baking would bring smiles to other people and give me something I can do for others, which would make me happier. I usually get a recipe online. I love the part where I plan how to reproduce the bakery from the recipes. 

This time, we settled on pumpkin muffins and apple pie, which would be a great choice. My wife’s company has some Japanese people unfamiliar with American Bakery. It is almost Thanksgiving day. Pumpkin and Apple are things I will think of around this time. Both of them represent the taste of autumn. Since I cannot bake pumpkin and apple pie, I decided to bake muffins today and apple pie tomorrow. I like this period. The weather is much better than that in summer. I love watching the colors on leave. It is so lovely outside now since all the leaves are turning yellow. I have a lot of good memories of this time.

Speaking of autumn and leaves, we have so many to vacuum. I had to vacuum more leaves today, but I think I got enough off our yard that I likely won’t have to do another round on Thursday. However, I’ll need to reevaluate the yard tomorrow since I don’t know when precisely the trees drop their leaves.  

This week, we went to Extra Grocery to get some ingredients, such as apples, for the bakery. I am already very excited. Hopefully, they will turn out well and be enjoyed by her and her coworkers.

Symbolism in The Great Gatsby

Introduction

When I read this book, one thing that stood out to me was the use of symbolism in the story. Symbolism is a powerful literary device that vividly expresses a person, situation, or object to readers. It also adds enriched subtle flavor to literature, just like Umami in cooking. 

Some symbolism is straightforward. For example, color symbolism is used in Edgar Allan Poe’s “The Masque of the Red Death” for an English speaker. Some symbolism, like “The Green Light” in Fitzgerald’s The Great Gatsby, is more universally relatable. Many readers would see the green light as the symbol of the American Dream.

Some symbolism is ambiguous and may have a different meaning for each reader depending on their experience, knowledge, or background. Foster (2003) writes in his book “How to Read Literature Like a Professor” that not all symbols are straightforward; on many occasions, symbols cannot be reduced to one thing; instead, they permit an unlimited range of possible interpretations (pp.104-106). Sometimes, the same symbolism could polymorph to convey entirely different meanings. For example, water in Awakening by Kate Chopin would mean unlimited freedom, while water in The Great Gatsby represents something else. 

Understanding symbolism in literature could enrich one’s reading experience. After reading multiple times and researching the meaning behind the symbolism, I came to my own conclusion on how I interpret the symbolism in The Great Gatsby. In this blog, I will discuss the symbolism in The Great Gatsby.

The Green Light

The green light is a symbol of hope and the American Dream that Gatsby chases. In English literature, the color green often stands for envy. It also represents money in the United States. The green light shows Gatsby’s envy and longing for the American Dream, old money. Gatsby believes that if he becomes wealthy enough, he will be accepted by the old-money society of East Egg. Having the green light on the Deck of Tom and Daisy’s house represents that marrying Daisy, for him, would mean becoming a part of that world.

Gatsby can see the green light glowing across the bay from his house. However, the water separates them, just like the social class divide. The water between Gatsby’s home and Daisy’s symbolizes their social gap. No matter how much effort he puts in or how much money he earns, he cannot close this gap. So, the light is always just out of his reach.

Why did Fitzgerald choose a light? A light is intangible—you can see it, but you can’t touch or hold it. This makes it the perfect symbol for Gatsby’s dream. No matter how rich he becomes, he will never be truly accepted by the old money elite because he lacks the family history they value. It’s a clever use of symbolism. It’s a haunting reminder of his dreams and his pursuits’ emptiness. By using a light, Fitzgerald emphasizes that Gatsby’s version of the American Dream is more like an illusion—something he can never attain. 

The Eyes of Doctor T.J. Eckleburg

The first time “The Eyes of Doctor T.J. Eckleburg” appears in the book is in Chapter 2. This is another clever symbol Fitzgerald uses to subtly critique the moral decay and corruption of authority during this period.

The eyes of Doctor T.J. Eckleburg symbolize the moral decline of those in power. These eyes are part of a billboard featuring T.J. Eckleburg’s giant blue eyes. The eyes seem to watch everyone who passes by, but as the book says, “they look out of no face” (p.19). This suggests they don’t truly see anything. Instead, they watch from behind “a pair of enormous yellow spectacles” (p.19). The pick of “yellow” for the spectacle makes them seem like a corrupt authority tainted by greed and lies. The eyes symbolize a hollow moral authority that does nothing about the corruption and decay of the 1920s.

The billboard is faded, showing how worn and meaningless this supposed “authority” has become. The book describes it as “by many paintless days, under sun and rain” (p.19). The eyes stare at the “solemn dumping ground” (p.19), overlooking the polluted and neglected valley. This valley, more likely a byproduct of industrialization, shows the consequences of greed and negligence. Yet, the so-called authority represented by the eyes does nothing to fix it.

The Valley of Ashes

The “valley of ashes,” which appears in the 2nd chapter of the book, is a wasteland where the working poor live, a stark contrast to the vibrant and glamorous lives in East and West Egg. Fitzgerald uses this setting to show the darker side of the American Dream. In this industrial world, the rich become richer while the poor are stuck in a dull, colorless existence. It critiques the idea that wealth alone can bring happiness, revealing how luxury often comes at the expense of those who are forgotten and left to struggle.

For many Americans, the economic boom of the 1920s did not mean prosperity. The gap between the rich and the poor was enormous. According to a BBC source, the top 5% of Americans earned one-third of the country’s income. In comparison, over 60% lived below the poverty line.

Fitzgerald’s portrayal of the Valley of Ashes echoes themes in Upton Sinclair’s The Jungle. Like Sinclair, Fitzgerald highlights the effects of industrialization on the working class. While Sinclair openly exposes the poor conditions and exploitation of workers, Fitzgerald uses a more subtle approach, creating a visual parody of industrial decay using “Ashes.”

The Valley’s polluted environment symbolizes the toll industrialization takes on the working class, even as the wealthy continue to thrive in luxury. Since Gatsby’s party is colorful, it emphasizes how dull the environment appears outside the rich area.

Conclusion

I was thrilled as I worked to decode the deeper meanings of The Great Gatsby. When I got to the second chapter, I was amazed at how cleverly the symbolism was used. The more I thought about it, the more I realized the story was about more than just the characters. While The Great Gatsby is a tragedy, I can’t help but feel the author’s criticism of the American Dream woven into the narrative.

In this blog, I focused on the symbolism of the green light, the eyes of Doctor T.J. Eckleburg, and the Valley of Ashes because those are more likely your English teacher asks you to think about the meaning behind them. However, the novel is rich with even more symbols, especially through its use of color (white, yellow, and green). After reading this, I encourage you to think about what each color might symbolize for you. Please share your thoughts with us! Don’t worry if your interpretation is different. Interpretation of symbolism varies with a reader, which makes literature so fascinating.

References

Weaknesses in the American economy became more apparent as the 1920s progressed (CCEA). (n.d.). BBC Bitesize. Retrieved November 4, 2024, from https://www.bbc.co.uk/bitesize/articles/znw2fdm

Fitzgerald, F.S. (1925). The Great Gatsby, Scribner. (the book was printed by Amazon)

Waffles, Vaccines, and Apple Sauce: A Cozy Weekend Tradition

Written October 27, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

Last night, my wife requested waffles for breakfast, so today, instead of cereal, I made a couple of waffles for us to enjoy. 

Shortly after moving to Tennessee, I made waffles every Sunday for a while, but it resulted in my wife and I gaining more weight than we wanted. So, we stopped eating waffles every Sunday but still enjoyed it occasionally.  

My wife and I awoke today to soreness centered on our vaccination points. Yesterday, we got two vaccines: a COVID booster and this year’s flu shot. The soreness seems to be impacting my ability to mix waffles.

We usually eat our waffles with blueberries. I love blueberries, and I eat them every day. Blueberries are one of the foods recommended for people like me with a kidney condition, so I eat a little portion of them every day. Blueberries go with waffles very well. We sometimes eat applesauce with our waffles. Unfortunately, we have no more applesauce left from last year. The applesauce we made yesterday is too new to consume. We have maple syrup, so our waffle will still be good. 

Speaking of our applesauce, the applesauce marathon was successful; we peeled, cut, and cooked 3 bushels of apples and made around 7 gallons of applesauce. We canned it into several quart and pint jars and divided them between us, but it’s less applesauce than we’ve made in previous years, so we might make another batch after Christmas. 

While my wife and I don’t eat that much applesauce, my sister’s household eats much more and might want more after a few months.  Perhaps dividing the year’s applesauce into two batches will become our new preferred strategy, as we were all tired by the end of the day, and processing another bushel of apples would have added at least another hour or two. 

One concern is that apples may be hard to find or too expensive to buy in large enough quantities that late in the year. We’ll have to see how the later batch goes to determine whether this strategy is viable. 

I enjoy making waffles and applesauce despite the work we need to put into them. I love seeing my family happy with what I or we produce, which makes me happy.

Balancing Health, Family, and Home Projects In A Busy Weekend

Written October 26, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

Today starts with a hectic morning. My wife and I took the regular annual flu vaccination and COVID shot. We would have liked to have done it earlier, but we were too busy with deck repair this year. Besides, it is much better than missing the flu vaccination at all. 

My medical doctors recommend I take vaccinations with extra caution. Because of my health condition, even the COVID vaccination was earlier than that of any adult my age. They tell me I am high-risk. I cannot see why I should be at high risk. Doctors, however, have my biological data that I cannot see and feel visually. With their expertise, I assume that I am a high risk. So, no matter what I think about the vaccination, we make the annual appointment. 

We usually get the vaccination earlier in October. This month, we had to do the deck painting earlier in October. Since the deck painting has a shorter due date as winter approaches, we decided to push out our vaccination. 

My wife prefers vaccinations on weekends because weekday appointments disrupt her schedule. She could take 30-45 minutes to go to the doctor on a weekday but chooses not to. She meticulously plans her daily schedule. She is always doing something. 

We usually go to a nearby pharmacy to receive our seasonal vaccination, which takes approximately 15 minutes from our house. Our appointment was at 9:30 a.m., which left me in a somewhat awkward schedule position. My wife starts her day at 5:30 a.m. every day. 9:30 a.m. was her best time since she usually completes creating menus and groceries for the week. However, I started running later now, and the appointment was in the middle of my morning routine. 

If only this vaccination disrupted my day, I could still tweak my schedule. I forgot about this vaccination schedule and planned to go to my mother’s to help her and my sister make apple sauce. My wife already planned her schedule. This was a few days’ notice for us, so she could not make it to the apple sauce. My wife will drop me off at my mother’s house for our planned applesauce marathon.  It’s also my brother-in-law’s birthday so we can see him and give him a gift. 

I would skip running and enjoy a few cups of coffee. I am ok with it.

How to Build A Sustainable Workout Routine

Written August 23, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

My wife suggested that I create my new exercise schedule. She told me it was not a good idea to train my muscles on the same part daily since I already have problems repairing my muscles. So, I came up with a new exercise routine last night.  

Split up the muscle training routines on different days. For now, I do once a week per section, but I want to include multiple types of exercise for each session. One of my biggest problems was that I got tired so quickly. I could manage to break my muscle fibers, but they don’t seem to repair as soon as they used to. Due to the restriction, I cannot eat enough protein to accommodate my exercise.

M – Pullups

T – Dips/Leg lifts

W – Pushups

R – Arms

F – Pullovers

It is not so bad, though. With arm exercises, for example, I can target several muscles. I could work on the Biceps, Triceps, and Brachialis muscles. I could also add the Coracobrachialis, Brachioradialis, and forearm muscles. 

I tried the exercise today and discovered that I could spend more time on muscle training. I think I’ve designed it to continue even after the lawn mowing starts. Since I don’t train daily, my muscles have enough time to repair. For now, I will do each section only once a week. I may change around when I have more muscles, but I think I am all right with this schedule. 

I keep my regular 5km or 10km running. Running gives me more energy, and I gain a lot more endurance from it. My wife was surprised at how much I gained endurance when we hiked in the ground canyon. Our house is on the hill, so mowing on our lawn can be challenging. I have enough endurance to complete the whole lawn because I have enough endurance to do so. That’s a solid 3 hours of mowing on the hill, which is not easy. 

I am excited about my new exercise routine. So far, I can train more muscles per section. I plan to add more exercise types to improve my muscles.

How Fitzgerald Made Jay Gatsby

Introduction

When I read this for the first time, I was surprised by how much my perception of Jay Gatsby changed over time. Initially, he was mysterious, almost like a shadowy gangster involved in bootlegging. However, by the middle of the book, my perception of Jay Gatsby had changed to something more admirable. I saw him as a determined young man who worked hard to achieve his goals. By the end, his death honestly broke my heart. Interestingly, this emotional shift was so gradual that I didn’t even realize how I invested my emotion into this protagonist. I started to wonder how Fitzgerald created that effect. 

In my second read, I could see that it was all about how Fitzgerald developed Gatsby’s character, leading him to become a tragic hero who represents the failure of the American Dream. To understand how Fitzgerald built such a tragic character, it helps to look at what makes a protagonist into a tragic hero.

Writers and scholars have studied the concept of the tragic Heroes for centuries, from ancient Greece to Shakespeare and beyond. In English literature, we first consider Shakespeare, who wrote many great tragedies, such as Hamlet, Othello, King Lear, and Macbeth. However, the idea of tragedy goes all the way back to ancient Greece, where Aristotle described the tragic hero in a way that still resonates today. According to Bennett & Ryole (2016), Aristotle defies that tragic hero as the following. A tragic hero is the main character, someone noble or admirable, who we can relate to or feel for. This character faces suffering or downfall, often ending in their death or failure by the story’s close. While their end feels like it had to happen and seems fair somehow, it also feels wrong and problematic to accept simultaneously. Furthermore, he also added three more elements that must be contained: peripeteia (‘reversal’), anagnorisis (‘revelation’ or ‘coming to self-knowledge’), and hamartia (‘tragic flaw’ or ‘error’) (p.119).

In my last blog post, I wrote about the American Dream and the story’s historical background. This time, I’ll dig into how Fitzgerald shapes Gatsby’s character throughout the book. In this post, I’ll explore how Fitzgerald uses these elements to shape Gatsby as a tragic hero, making his story both captivating and heartbreaking. Ultimately, how this tragic hero tied into Fitzgerald’s main critique, “the disillusionment of the American Dream.”

Gatsby’s Mysterious Persona

To introduce the protagonist gradually, Fitzgerald used a narrative technique known as “gradual revelation” or “delayed characterization,” which gradually revealed Gatsby and was very effective. This technique created Gatsby’s mysterial character by investing the reader in accumulating information about him, heightening the emotional impact of his eventual downfall. By the end of the book, I felt so bad for Gatsby that it made me think his death was rather unjustifiable. 

Intentionally Crafted Narrative Distance

Gatsby was always presented from Nick’s eyes. By presenting Gatsby from someone else’s eye, Fitzgerald intentionally added a layer between Gatsby and the reader. At first, Nick knows nothing – and, therefore, the reader – about Gatsby. There are rumors and fragments of information about Gatsby, such as an Oxford man (p. 33), ‘he killed a man’ (p. 34), ‘bootlegger’ (p. 40), and so on. Some rumors, such as ‘he gives large parties,’ were true.

Nick’s unreliable narration and biases

Nick is reluctant to judge others because he recalls what his father said. He is very observant, but his narration is unreliable and biased. Nick’s impression of Gatsby evolves throughout the novel, although his subjective perspective views of Gatsby left me with more complex and contradictory views of him. Gatsby is a very determined man who has built his wealth. Nick admires Gatsby’s optimism and dream but is still critical of his moral ambiguity. 

Fitzgerald builds Gatsby’s enigmatic persona through rumors rather than direct action. Nick hears the rumors about Gatsby—stories of him being a bootlegger, a war hero, or even a relative of the Kaiser—and gives readers a kaleidoscope of impressions from Nick’s perception. Although, all rumore could be possibly true because it represent the social atmosphere of 1920’s United States, where appearance matters more than reality. 

Gradual Unveiling of Gatsby’s Tragic Idealism

As Nick learns more about Gatsby’s past and his idealized love for Daisy, his perception of Gatsby starts to shift, and the view of Gatsby crystallizes into a more recognizable human being. Gatsby is so fixated on trying to gain back the love he shared with Daisy that he becomes blind to Daisy’s flaws and vulnerability, which eventually results in his fall. The transition from mystery figure to tragedy is key to his characterization, creating the tragic Hero Arc containing all Aristotle’s identified elements.  By the end, Gatsby’s idealism, hope, and innocence become apparent, making his death even more heartbreaking.

Symbolism of Gatsby’s Death

Gatsby’s tragic end symbolizes the disillusionment of the American Dream. By the time Gatsby dies, Nick’s administration shifts to sympathy. Gatsby is a tragic hero trapped in the impossible dream of wealth, love, and status. 

Gatsby’s Background

Gatsby crafted and presented his idealized version regarding his wealth, heritage, and adventure. His tale reflects his desired appearance of himself as if he was born into the social class he was never born into, underscoring both his ambition and the constructed nature of his identity. Some of his tales could be more consistent.

The “Middle West” Inconsistency.

Gatsby claimed he was from a wealthy family in the Middle West, although he told Nick that he was from San Francisco (p. 42). Since San Franciso is not located in the Middle West, it suggests geographical inconsistency and his origin story is more likely the crafted version of the story.

Education at Oxford

He claimed he had gone to Oxford University (p. 42) and even stated that it was his family tradition. This lie is Gatsby’s attempt to establish himself as part of an old-money class. Later, we know this was also a fabricated story.

The Young Rajah Persona

Gatsby claimed that he was living like a young Rajah in the capitals of Europe, collecting jewels, hunting big game, and painting a little to forget about something unfortunate that had happened to him in the past (p. 42). He hints that he had heartbreak with Daisy, but the story still casts him as a sophisticated man with wealth. 

Attempt to Authenticate His Crafted Persona 

Despite many fabricated tales, there is some truth in his story. His “Valour Extraordinary” medal is one of the few verifiable aspects of his background. Gatsby’s real heroism in the war gives a glimpse of his genuine achievements, showing that his need for reinvention doesn’t come from a lack of personal worth but rather his desperate desire to fit Daisy’s world. The association with Dan Cody is also the truth, which is verifiable by the picture of Dan Cody. 

Gatsby’s Actual Background

Chapter 6 of the book reveals Gatsby’s actual background. Gatsby was born into a humble family in North Dakota, in the Midwest, and his original name was James Gatz. At 17, he legally changed his name to “Jay Gatsby” to start his new life aligned with the American dream. 

Before he met Dan Cody, Gatsby took whatever jobs he could, such as clam-digging and salmon fishing. His “brown, hardening body” indicates that he was doing intensive physical work during his youth. 

Gatsby’s early experience with women left him jaded and “contemptuous of them.” He was more of a ladyman with a surface-level relationship with women. More likely, Daisy was the first unattainable woman he met in his formative years, leading to his obsession with Daisy. Daisy was an unattainable, “perfect” ideal. 

Gatsby encountered with Dan Cody at Lake Superiors. He managed to impress Dan Cody, which is Gatsby’s turning point. The experience shapes Gatsby’s ambitions and gives him the tools to craft his new identity through Cody’s sudden death. Dan Cody left Gatsby some inheritance but could not legally claim him, so he pursued wealth by other means.

The Symbolism of Gatsby’s Mansion and Parties

Gatsby’s mansion and lavish parties reveal his immense ambition and attempts to fit into high society. Yet, despite all the effort, something feels off – his displays of wealth don’t quite get him accepted by the old money crowd. Gatsby is portrayed as an introverted character. Nick is poorer than Gatsby, yet Nick is more successful in associating with Tom or Daisy. I don’t even think he even enjoys crowds or parties. In reality, all his parties are for one person—Daisy. 

Gatsby’s extravagant details are part of a carefully crafted image meant to attract her and gain approval from the wealthy people with whom he wants to belong. Yet, this also highlights his isolation and the shallow nature of his connections. 

Artifice and Luxury

The over-the-top “salads of harlequin design” and “bewitched turkeys” evoke sophistication and extravagance, yet they are as fake as Gatsby’s identity. It’s hard to picture what a “harlequin” salad would look like—maybe he threw in some caviar for good measure! (After reading this book, I seriously considered how to make this salad.) His opulent spread and carefully arranged book collection are designed to impress. But the flashy display of wealth comes off as a bit showy, signaling that his wealth is new and somewhat garish—an attempt to mimic the old money class he admires. So, there is something amiss about all the displays he created. Gatsby still doesn’t quite belong to the society he longs to fit. 

Transient, Superficial Connections

There were so many guests at Gatsby’s party, drinking, dancing, and listening to the music. Considering the prohibition at this period, serving alcohol for so many people looked pretty costly. The interesting part of the crowd was that almost all of them were not invited by Gatsby. They showed up at the party because someone wanted to go as if attending a carnival at an amusement park party. 

Gambe never wants to associate with the crowds. Gatsby does not even introduce himself to guests at the party, even though he is hosting it. Crowds don’t even feel the need to thank Gatsby for the party. For them, Gatsby is an individual who holds a party with free drinks. Loose and rebellious, this fits into the theme of the moral corruption of the 1920s.

How superficial the connections to these crowds were revealed at the time of Gatsby’s funeral underlines Gatsby’s isolation from these crowds. Frankly, just like Nick, the story’s narrator, I was utterly disgusted by people. Nick’s perspectives on these people are introduced in the book’s first chapter. Again, this is a subtle yet practical introduction to Gatsby by the author, so Gatsby turns into a tragic hero at the end of the book.

Eventually, Gatsby realizes his grand parties won’t be enough to win Daisy over, so he turns to Nick to create an opportunity for them to meet directly. The reason behind his failure to lure old money leads to the tragic end of, ultimately, the myths of the American Dream. 

Gatsby’s Love for Daisy

Gatsby’s fixation on Daisy reflects his longing for perfection, and Daisy symbolizes mystic love, which exists in his mind more than in reality. Although his love is intense, can you imagine someone who loves you building a mansion just across the street so that he or she can see you daily? Creepy. In this story, the author creates an exaggerated version of Gatsby’s desire and commitment to get them. If you think about his humble life of early life with clam-digging or salmon fishing, a building in a mansion on Long Island is impressive.

No matter Gatsby’s commitment in the book, Gatsby’s love for Daisy is not perceived as real but rather a more constructed illusion. I almost felt like he was in love with the idea of being with Daisy, not with her. Getting Daisy is a sub-reward for getting into a social class he has desired since he saw Don Cody. This obsessive love blinded him. He could not see Daisy’s flow at all, which made his intense and powerful but doomed pursuit. 

Daisy’s Real Character vs. Gatsby’s Idealization

Gatsby’s love for Daisy feels more like an illusion or fantasy than actual, grounded affection, partially because of how he describes his feelings. “At his lip touch, she blossomed for him like a flower, and the incarnation was complete (p. 70). When Gatsby kissed her, it wasn’t just an act of love; it was like he was “bringing to life” his entire vision of success, happiness, and belonging.

Using words such as ‘incarnation’ or ‘she blossomed for him’ reveals that Gatsby sees Daisy not just as a person but as a kind of ideal—a perfect dream he’s created in his mind. Gatsby’s love is more about what Daisy represents than who she really is. To Gatsby, Daisy embodies all his dreams of wealth, beauty, and status, so his love for her is tied up with his ambition. This makes his feelings seem less like a genuine relationship and more like an obsession with an unreachable ideal. In other words, Gatsby’s “love” feels like an illusion because he’s chasing a version of Daisy that may never have indeed existed.

Part of his obsession with Daisy is tied strongly to her old money status, which is forever out of his reach despite his wealth. To him, Daisy embodies a world he longs to belong to—a world of elegance, stability, and privilege. There is a class division between people, which cannot break just because you work hard. People like Daisy also sit with their privileged lives without any effort or purpose, still managing to hurt people like Gatsby. Nick spits this out clearly in the first chapter of this book. 

Gatsby’s obsession with Daisy creates a blind spot in his reality. Gatsby ignores that while charming and beautiful, Daisy is also shallow, materialistic, and, ultimately, unwilling to sacrifice her comfort and security for love. She left town with her husband despite the accidents she created. Ultimately, Daisy chooses Tom for his wealth and status, not just because of a moment of family pressure. This difference between Gatsby’s “vision” of Daisy and the honest Daisy becomes painfully clear when she wavers between Gatsby and Tom and retreats into her life with Tom, symbolizing her inability to live up to Gatsby’s expectations. 

Gatsby’s tragic flaw

Gatsby’s Fatal Flaw and His Obsession with the Illusion of Love

Gatsby’s unwavering belief that he can recreate the past with Daisy drives him. He’s so wrapped up in this idealized vision that he’s blinded to the reality of their relationship. For Gatsby, Daisy is more than just a love interest—she embodies the social acceptance and sense of belonging he’s always craved. Therefore, his love for Daisy is closely tied to his desire to be accepted into the elite class. This unrealistic idealism makes him cling to Daisy, seeing her as a romantic partner, the final piece of a life he believes will make him complete. However, this dream is built on a shaky foundation of illusion rather than mutual connection, which quickly shutters when Daisy cannot openly choose Gatsby over Tom. Even after this, Gatsby can’t let go of his dream, leading to heartbreak.

More Money Does Not Place In Old-Money Crowd

Gatsby thinks having money puts him among the wealthy, old-money crowd that Daisy belongs to. But, in reality, he doesn’t get the people in East Egg. It is not about how much money you have but about the long line of wealthy, respected families. No matter how rich Gatsby becomes, his humble background and lack of family history keep him outside East Egg.

Gatsby also doesn’t fully grasp the social cues of the old-money world. For instance, he misses subtle hints, like when a woman casually invites him to join her at a party. Tom, who notices this, can’t help but look down on Gatsby for not fitting in smoothly. This misunderstanding shows how, despite all his wealth, Gatsby can’t entirely break into the world he longs to join.

The American Dream as an Illusion

Nick’s observation that Gatsby “had paid a high price for living too long with a single dream” underscores the self-destructive nature of Gatsby’s fixation. His entire life becomes a monument to a false ideal, and when it collapses, he’s left without purpose or identity. Gatsby’s tragedy reflects the dangers of investing one’s entire identity in a singular, illusory goal, especially one tied to wealth and social acceptance.

Conclusion

The core of this book is all about the American Dream- especially one man’s dream and fulfillment. But really, it’s more about a disillusionment with the American Dream. Fitzgerald brings Gatsby’s character into Nick’s life in a way that makes us feel the impact of his tragic journey, ultimately revealing Fitzgerald’s main critique of the American dream.

Pathos is one of the rhetorical elements used to convince the audience of your main point through emotional appeals. Fitzgerald created a tragic story to convince you of his main point of disillusionment with the American dream and how dangerous it would be if that were the sole purpose of your drive. To make his story point effective, he intentionally used the effective method to create the tragic hero character Jay Gatsby.

References

Bennett, A. & Royle, N. (2016). An Introduction to Literature, Criticism and Theory (5th ed.). Routhledge.

Fitzgerald, F.S. (1925). The Great Gatsby, Scribner. (Amazon printed the book)

Celebrating with A U.S. Flag Cake

Written October 20, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

My wife is working toward getting U.S. citizenship. Last Friday, she had an interview with an officer. She came back with good news. She has been studying for citizenship since April this year, and I was very happy for us. My wife said she wanted to eat a raspberry shortcake the other day. Today, I’ve made a cake to celebrate my wife’s successful citizenship test.

I’ve tried to decorate it to at least give the impression of an American flag using whipped cream, blueberries, and raspberries, a suggestion from my sister. I was worried it would take longer than I expected. Our oven makes baking a little tricky since its thermostat is known to be off, so baking times are always off. The house started to fill up with the delicious scent of a baking cake. Overall, it turned out pretty well. 

My sister and I love baking. However, my wife is not as fond of sweets, so I don’t bake as often as I used to. I still bake for a big occasion, such as a birthday parties, thanksgiving, or Christmas day. Passing the exam for U.S. Citizenship was an occasion well-worth celebrating with cake. Since she spoke of the raspberry shortcake, I took the opportunity to bake. 

My wife did not know I was making a cake resembling an American flag, so she was so excited when she saw it, making me proud and happy.

Rebuilding Strength with Patience: My Journey Back to 10 Pull-Ups

Written October 17, 2024

reviewed 10/27

Hello Dear Readers,

For the first time this season, I completed all ten intended pullups. During summer, I had physically intensive chores, such as lawn mowing, and I had to drop off some of my muscle training exercises. Pull-ups are one of the exercises that dropped out. Due to my kidney condition, I am restricted in protein intake. In early summer, I noticed that I had difficulties keeping my ideal weight. Since I can eat less protein than a healthy adult would consume. I suspected I lost my muscles. I made choices to keep running and less muscle training. I wanted to get back to it in the Fall. 

I had difficulty doing my pull-ups for the first time since I dropped out of the exercise after a few months. I had lost muscle endurance altogether. I felt that lactic acid accumulated quickly, and I had no power to continue. It has been some time since I added back pull-up and pull-over muscle exercises to my summer routine. I gradually gained back my muscle endurance and strength. Today, I had to drop off after the first 5, but after a short break, I finished them. I’ll keep trying to get closer to getting them all done without having to take a break, but as long as I get them all done, I’m pretty satisfied.  

With the compromising kidney conditions, I need to be patient with anything I will do with my body. No matter how much I want to gain my muscles quickly, exercising more than my body can handle could cause unwanted muscle loss or, even worse, an injury. I still need to get my pullover count back up to 10, but I’m sure that happen. I have to be patient. 

My journey to getting back to what I could have done continues. I’ll need to work out a new exercise schedule today. After I can increase my pullups and pullovers to sets of 10, I can add dips and leg lifts to the routine and eventually start doing bicep curls again. My wife noted that doing the same exercises daily was not a good strategy and that I should spread them out more instead.  This way, I think I’ll focus on a single exercise type each day of the week, and this may be something that I can maintain during the lawn mowing season, too.