I Am Learning How To Balance My Ambition

Written on August 10, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

Yesterday, I set out to run 10 kilometers. However, it quickly became apparent that my legs hadn’t fully recovered from my previous run—they were sore and heavy. Despite my initial ambition, I realized that pushing through might not be the wisest decision, so I reluctantly cut the run short at 5 kilometers.

As I reflected on this decision, my wife shared a cautionary tale from her past. Years ago, when she was younger and just as driven, she ignored the early warning signs of soreness in her legs and kept running. Unfortunately, this led to stress fractures that sidelined her for several weeks. She emphasized the importance of listening to our bodies, no matter how strong the desire to achieve a goal might be. Her experience is a powerful reminder that ambition, if not balanced with self-care, can sometimes lead to setbacks.

Balancing my goals with my physical limitations has always been a challenge. There’s a fine line between pushing myself to improve and pushing myself too far. At times, it feels frustrating, especially when I see my progress over the past year. Thanks to my running app, I’ve been able to track my distances and pace, and I’ve seen significant improvement. Even when I complete a 10-kilometer run, my times are much better than last year. This progress motivates me to keep going but also comes with a price.

I’ve noticed that my recovery time has become longer, which I suspect is partly due to my limited protein intake. While a typical adult consumes about 1/1000 of their body weight in protein, I can only manage a little over half of that. This has made it challenging to fully recover from muscle soreness, even though I’ve figured out how to manage my weight and prevent muscle loss. Recovery remains an ongoing struggle.

Despite these challenges, I’m trying to focus on the positives. I’m proud of how hard I work and how much I’ve improved despite my difficulties. My wife often reminds me that I’m resilient, even though I get tired more easily and have trouble recovering. She understands my struggles and supports my determination to reach my goals.

Ultimately, I’ve decided to embrace a more balanced perspective. It’s okay if I can’t always run 10 kilometers due to physical limitations. The muscle soreness I’m experiencing is a sign that I’m pushing myself toward my goals, and that’s something to be proud of. Most importantly, I continue moving forward and never give up, even when the journey gets tough.

This Is How I Maintained My Weight With Renal Restrictions

Written on August 6, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

I’ve recently developed a new habit that’s become a key part of my daily routine: eating two small pastry bites before my morning run and four while mowing the lawn. This might seem like a quirky ritual, but for someone like me, living with chronic kidney disease, it’s actually a carefully considered strategy. My condition requires me to follow a highly controlled diet, which means that many of the foods others enjoy freely are off-limits or need to be consumed in minimal quantities. For example, I have to be extremely cautious with my protein, cheese, and chocolate intake—three things I used to enjoy but now have to ration carefully.

But those are just the tip of the iceberg. There are many other foods that I need to monitor closely, especially when it comes to salt. Salt is a concern because it’s hidden in many everyday items, like bread. Many of the bread on store shelves contain far more salt than my kidneys can safely handle, so I’ve had to say goodbye to many of my old favorites.

When we first discovered my kidney disease, it was a wake-up call that prompted significant changes in our household. Dining out, for example, became a rare occasion—something we now do no more than once a week, if at all. We also became much more vigilant about what we bring into our kitchen. Spice mixes, which often contain hidden salt, are a perfect example. My wife began making our spice blends and sauces from scratch each weekend to avoid this. This way, we can ensure that everything we eat is within my dietary guidelines. While this may sound like a lot of work, we ease into it gradually, making it feel like a natural part of our lifestyle rather than a burden.

Summer, of course, brings its own challenges, particularly with the added task of lawn care. Because of my dietary restrictions, I used to rely on small, plant-based protein bars to keep my energy up during these activities. My doctor assured me these were safe in moderation, but I might have overdone it. I soon realized that I needed to cut back on them, which led to a new problem: maintaining my weight. My weight tends to hover between 145 and 155 pounds, and according to my smart scale, I have more muscle than the average person my age, thanks to regular exercise. However, with so little body fat, any drop in weight likely means I’m losing muscle, which isn’t ideal.

To tackle this issue, my wife turned to the DaVita website, a resource we’ve trusted since my time on peritoneal dialysis. DaVita specializes in kidney care and offers a wealth of kidney-friendly recipes. We found some great ideas there and decided to start making small muffins or pastry bites. These are perfect for my needs because they’re made in small portions, which means that eating a few won’t cause my blood sugar to spike, especially when I’m active. The pastry bites are filled with jam that my wife makes herself, using fresh fruit from the farmer’s market and just a touch of sugar. Store-bought jams are often too sweet for us, so this homemade version is a better fit.

Since I started incorporating these pastry bites into my diet, my weight has stabilized, and I’m no longer worried about muscle loss. I may need to adjust this routine when the lawn mowing season ends, but for now, eating two pastry bites before my run and four.