Negotiations with a Tired Body (and a Lawnmower)

Written June 12, 2025

Hello Dear Readers,

As per tradition—and by “tradition,” I mean “necessity born from heat survival instincts”—I began my day mowing the lawn. Here in Nashville, the summer sun doesn’t just rise, it attacks. So if you’ve got a body like mine—one that treats both heatwaves and cold snaps like personal insults—you learn to outsmart the weather before it starts throwing punches.

Normally, I can mow half the yard and still have enough gas left in the tank to face the rest of the day. But today? Nope. After mowing, my body filed a formal complaint and went straight into shutdown mode. I skipped my pre-breakfast exercises, half-expecting that would be it for the day’s physical activity. My body said no. My willpower said maybe. Eventually, I rolled onto the mat for some planks and stretches—not exactly Olympic training, but hey, it counts.

Somehow, I rallied enough energy to squeeze in my planks and arm curls. I didn’t bounce back; I meandered back—like a weary turtle doing yoga. Still, I did it. Not exactly on schedule, but sometimes winning means just showing up… 30 minutes later than planned and slightly annoyed.

Now here’s the kicker. I can’t tell what’s making me tired: the weather, age, my kidneys, or some perfect storm of all three. Whatever it is, when I push too hard, I morph into something between a zombie and a disgruntled houseplant. Meanwhile, my wife bounces around like she’s got a backup battery installed. She claims she struggles in the morning, but by the time I’m up, she’s practically done with her workout and halfway through a motivational podcast. She says she’s slow in the morning. I say she’s just being polite to us mortals.

So I’ve had to learn the art of negotiation—not with clients or coworkers, but with my own body. Some days, I push things to tomorrow, knowing full well tomorrow might need to be negotiated too. Other days, I rest so I can function again in the afternoon. This is not laziness. This is energy management. The strategic pause. The recharge pit stop.

I’ve had a kidney condition for who knows how long—discovered only after a brain stroke crashed the party. Maybe I’ve always been running at 70% battery while others (like my wife) were born with solar panels. And yes, I know comparison is the thief of joy… but sometimes it also leaves a trail of gym clothes and lawn clippings.

I don’t have a high-energy body. But I do have a high-effort mindset. So I’ll keep negotiating with this unpredictable, occasionally rebellious body of mine. I may not be fast. I may not be consistent. But I am persistent—and that counts for something.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to rest heroically so I can finish my to-do list… sometime before winter.

Winter in Nashville and My New Health Monitoring Ring

Written December 3, 2024

Hello Dear Readers,

Nashville is so cold. Last night, we were cursed with a light dusting of snow. Now, I am confident that winter has come to Nashville. While it hasn’t been quite cold enough for long enough for the ground to keep much snow, it certainly has been cold enough the past two days.  Tomorrow’s forecasted temperature is much warmer than today’s, making tomorrow’s run more pleasant. Luckily, I don’t expect the snow to complicate my intended run tomorrow, but I’ll have to make that final judgment immediately before my run.

Today, I am trying out my new health/fitness monitoring device. It arrived yesterday, and I spent some time today charging and configuring it to suit my needs. After I got a brain stroke and broke my kidneys, my nephrologist told me to monitor my blood pressure. I am taking medications to control my blood pressure, so my doctor needs to know how well I am doing. 

Initially, we used the old-style blood pressure machine several times daily and logged the results in a notebook. Several years ago, my wife suggested using a watch. I started running. My wife had used a Fitbit for over a decade. Unfortunately, her FitBit did not track her blood pressure, so I purchased a watch that could do it. Whenever I get a new watch to replace the old one, my doctor checks how accurately the blood pressure is measured. The watch is entirely accurate. However, my last watch started failing to track my steps. This time, I wanted to try a ring. 

It is a ring to track my vitals, just like the watch. Instead of a watch, this one is a ring and promises a much more robust battery. So far, I like it better than my watch, although it doesn’t have a display. Since I rarely have my phone, that’s not much of an issue, and I can still wear my watch using it as a basic watch. 

I also suggested my wife get a ring, but she still has a Fitbit. She likes to see the time. One thing she wants to do is be on her phone only some of the time. She says a smartphone is a kind of destruction for her. 

So far, I am happy with the ring.